A personal statement 2010>>>2011

I’m writing this in the few remaining hours of 2010. I don’t have a plan for this post. I don’t know what I will write. Nevertheless, I’m writing it. Why? Because I want to write one last post before this year ends. It’s an emotional thing so bear with me.

When I try to evaluate this year, I can’t really decide whether it was a happy year or a not so happy year. The first three quarters were fun, incredibly fun actually. I have a lot of happy memories and a lot of awesome friends. The last quarter, however, was not happy. There were a lot of happy moments during the last three months, I can’t deny that but deep down I wasn’t really happy.

I’ve been blessed with so many beautiful people in my life. They make me happy and even though some of them walked away, their effect on my life still lingers. One thing I’ve learned this year is that you can’t know for how long people will stay in your life. Some will stay for a while and some will stay forever. It could be a few days, a few weeks or a few years but the truth is you are going to have limited time with some people. I’ve also learned that it’s very important to always part on good terms. It’s not a very nice feeling to remember someone you used to love in a bad way.

When it’s time to leave, always leave behind you a good memory.

Another thing I learned this year is that I can’t change who I am. I can’t live any other way. I discovered that sometimes it will bring me trouble; sometimes I will be criticized for it but it makes me miserable to try to be somebody else.

My final statement in 2010:

I will always be me. I have no desire to hide any part of my inner self to please anyone. I will love passionately and with all my heart even if it hurts sometimes. I will try my best to keep all the beautiful parts of my soul. I will always see the good in people even if they disappoint me sometimes. I’ll learn from my mistakes and I will never repeat them. I insist on staying the way I am whatever it takes.

My hopes and desires for 2011:

I hope to find peace of mind.

I hope to still have those who love me in my life.

I want to spread love and compassion all around me.

I want to go beyond my dreams.

I want to have an adventure.

I want love, passion and peace.

2010, you were not my best year but you were not my worst. I’m sad that you had to end this way but I'll hold on to the sweet memories.

2011, I hope to find reconciliation in your days and I hope to keep smiling.

Happy new year my dear friends and awesome readers :)


A song for you....

Be free...

When who you really are is not suitable for living nowadays.

When the real you brings you only trouble.

When you find blame if you act spontaneously.

When following your intuition is criticized.

When simply acting the way you like becomes a rare thing.

What should you do?

Insist on being you or try to suppress your intuitive self?

Accept the criticism and the blame

Or

Hide the best parts of you in order to avoid trouble.

I am an intuitive person.

I like to say how I feel and do what I like.

I don’t like to hide anything.

I like being free to say and do what I want.

I enjoy being an open book.

I hate secrets, they trouble me.

I don’t like to hide things, afraid of envious people.

I don’t like to hide things, afraid to be judged.

I like to be free.

I like to be able to say what I want to say, when I feel like saying it.

I don’t care if it brings me trouble.

Living any other way is just more troublesome.

I am who I am.

Whether it’s wrong or right.

Whether it’s suitable or not.

I will always be me.

Just the way I like it.