About Love...

Love isn’t just a word you say.
It’s not something to take back when you may.
Love isn’t just a feeling of affection,
Love cannot be based on merely an attraction.
No, it’s about life and much more.
It’s a feeling you never felt before.
It’s fills your heart in every way.
Growing inside your heart everyday.


Over love you will never gain control.
You love without making sense at all.
Love when true can change the whole world.
Love is much more than just a word.
It’s like the air we breath, without it you’ll die.
It brings you a lot of joy that you could fly.
It’s not about how you love or who.
It’s only about it being true.


Love is innocent, Love is pure.
Love isn’t weakness, Love isn’t cruel.
If you’ll love, Love with passion.
For love isn’t complete if not with passion.
Love is supposed to make you feel alive.
It’s supposed to be the reason you survive.
Love is free of reason, free of benefit.
Love is about loving and being loved and that’s it…

A letter to 2009...

Dear 2009:

You're almost over and it's time to say goodbye. I don't know why most people are not happy with you. So what if some bad things happened :) it happens all the time. For me you were a great year, even though I had my share of misfortunate events :) I learned a lot and I dare to say I feel much happier than I felt in 2008. At the end of 2008 I wished for new things and I wished for better things, not all my wishes came true and some didn't come out as I wanted them to be but I didn't really expect them to be perfect even though I wanted them to be.


2009, you were a great year for me in the matters of communication, I'm finally learning how to let everything out :). You are without doubt one of the most important years of my life as I discovered the joy of writing and experienced the amazing feeling of having friends and complete strangers reading my writings and giving me awesome feedback :):). I discovered things in me I didn't know were there and I feel much much happier.


Okay some issues remained the same this year and I truly wished that they'll change but who am I kidding it's impossible :) so that wish went with the wind lol. I didn't cry as much as I did in 2008 so that's definitely an up (Y). In the end of 2008 certain people walked into my life luckily they walked out and it was an eye opening experience so I'm thankful for that. 2009, a lot of very important things in my life happened during your days and I'm thankful for having such a good year.


I tried to change for worse this year- I tried to be rude and evil (6) lol-as I thought it might be easier but I didn't like myself that way and I couldn't even do it right . I discovered that perfection is not what people think of as perfect it's what I think of as perfect. Btw I'm trying to quit wanting everything to be perfect it's exhausting ;). In the end, I know it's crazy to even write a letter to a year-maybe I went a little crazy during you as well- but I had something to say and I'll say it no matter how crazy it may seem...2009 I love you (K)

Perfectly imperfect...

I know I’m not an angel, I know I’m no saint.
Sometimes I’m strong, other times I’m afraid.
I might be good or I might be bad.
At times I feel happy but then I feel sad.

Sometimes I’m crazy, sometimes I’m a fool.
Other times I’m smart and really really cool.
I can be nice and really sweet, and
I can be the weirdest person you’ll ever meet.


I have many faults, I make mistakes too.
I’m a result of what I’ve been through.
I’m only human that’s all I can be.
Of your judgment I want to be free.

I’m a perfectionist, perfection is what I seek.
I like to do things properly so to speak.
But I’m not perfect, now I know I don’t need to be.
I’m perfectly imperfect, and I love being me.

Imagine...

Imagine a beautiful garden,
With colorful flowers and nice trees.
Birds singing and butterflies flying.
A soothing beautiful scene.


Imagine a calm beach,

With lovers walking hand in hand,

The waves are caressing their feet,

And everything is possible.

Imagine a crowded park,

With children running and playing,

The sound of their laughter fills the air,

And nothing else in the world matters.

Imagine a beautiful future.

Don’t be afraid to dream,

Dreams are possible, dreams are true.

Life is colorful, life………is beautiful.

Uncover The unseen...

There were times when you were afraid.

Afraid to love, afraid to laugh, afraid to live.
And you stood still waiting for the storm to pass,
Hoping that these misfortunes won’t last.


And there were times when you were free.
Free to love, free to laugh, free to live.
And you enjoyed the moments while they last,
Praying that it won’t fade away real fast.

Moments of freedom and moments of grief,
And all the time, in tomorrow you believe.
You always wonder what it’ll bring,
Would it be cold as winter or warm like spring?


Try to look for strength in a moment of fear,
Cause fear is not always that real.
Be strong to live, laugh and love.
Live you’re life till you’ve had enough.


And every moment of joy, you must cherish.
For in a moment all of it could vanish.
Enjoy whatever life brings you.
For every day, it is something new.


You can’t always believe what you see,
For life is not always clear as you and me.
Try to see beyond what’s there to be seen.
Try to uncover what’s been there but unseen.

What if...... ?

What if our world changes,
and we can’t get back on track
What if we lost all our dreams,
And we can’t get them back.
What if all the love is gone,
And into numbness we drift.
what if there is no truth,
and only lies are left.
What if the sun never rises,
And we’re stuck in the dark.
Are we going to give up,
Or step up and fight back.


WE FIGHT....


So when the change comes,
New experiences we’ll gain.
When we lose our dreams,
We've the power to dream again.
If all the love is gone,
Something else we’ll find
If only lies are left. With faith,
We’ll have them confined
And if the sun never rises,
And we’re stuck in the dark.
We’ll search for a candle,
And light it on our way back...

Thoughts of an optimistic pessimist

Living in a jungle called the human world.
People living without one true word.
Deceit and betrayal are the only truth.
And yet we live in denial;
We see the smoke but ignore the fire.

No longer brave; no longer strong.
Fighting all the time, we never get along.
Love and morals died out.
And yet we live in denial;
We see the smoke but ignore the fire.


We all suffer and it’s entirely our fault.
Respect and honesty no longer taught.
Pain and destruction now rule the world.
And yet we live in denial;
We see the smoke but ignore the fire.

To be fair the jungle isn’t always that bad.
There’s also beauty and for it I’m glad.
But this beauty is fading away;
We have to do our best for it to stay.
Because this jungle is our home.

Life will always be bitter sweet.
If the good exists, so does the bad.
So there’s no point in staying mad.
But we can’t keep living in denial;
Because we can’t keep ignoring the fire.

Butterflies and Hurricanes...

A butterfly in a beautiful garden.
A fragile creature with a heavy burden.
A heavy burden often known as life,
As in this life it’s not easy to survive.

The beautiful butterfly’s doing it’s best.
To live a full life and to never resist,
A chance for it’s soul to revive,
Until it’s the end of it’s life.

Through the garden it flies,
The river of it's dreams never dries.
And then comes a mighty hurricane,
Wiping the dreams away with it’s rain.

As the hurricane grows fiercer,
And the end seems nearer and nearer.
The butterfly is stuck in a fight,
That needs to be fought to reach the light.

Standing still won’t lead you anywhere,
It’s fight or lose and we’ve all been there.
It may take you a while to win this fight,
But at least you’re not giving up tonight.

The hurricane is only as strong as you are.
Aim to reach the sky, it’s not that far.
There’s no way to avoid a hurricane,
So stand in the middle and enjoy the rain.

Cause we’re all butterflies in the garden.
We’re all flying through life with it’s burden.
And no matter how fierce is the next hurricane,
We’re no longer afraid of the rain…

Inspired by: A song called "Butterflies and Hurricanes- MUSE"

A broken little heart...

There was a little girl, a little heart,
Living a broken life, torn apart.
She can’t recall what it was like,
Before her life became a constant fight.
Maybe she was happy once upon a time.
Over the years, of happiness there was no sign.
Her pain was never gone only silenced.
The fear is never gone, she’s always frightened.

The girl grew up still living in pain.
All the efforts to be happy were in vain.
The hole in her heart keeps getting bigger.
A way out of this hole, she cannot figure.
What do you do when who’s killing you,
Is supposed to be the one who loves you.
When the love for your tormentor is inevitable,
Of fighting back, will you ever be capable???

Emotions...

Hate…
Hate is strong and overwhelming.
It conquers your mind with no welcoming.
Be careful as hate can easily control your life.
With no resistance, it will cut through you like a knife.

Anger…
Anger, an emotion that is so consuming.
It gets control and all the time you’re fuming.
Anger will easily spread into your life.
It’ll consume so much. It’ll eat you alive.

Agony…
Agony might be harder to survive.
Giving in to it doesn’t mean you’re alive.
Getting over it might take you a while,
But an easy journey if you walk the first mile.

Joy…
Joy is the feeling that rocks your soul.
Joy isn’t really about having it all.
Joy can bring out who you really are.
Joy rise from within, it’s not that far.

Love…
Love is what really changes your life.
Receiving sincere love is a gift from above.
Feeling love is like having all what you need.
And love is best when given and received.

Satisfaction…
It’s really hard to feel satisfied,
when your problems, you’ve denied.
it’s good to appreciate what you’ve got.
It doesn’t matter whether it’s perfect or not.

Just believe...

With every breath, I take
My life is filled with the fake.
Fake emotions all around me,
Fake world surrounding me.

Illusions are now taken as reality,
The craziness mistaken for sanity.
Bonds between people fragile like ice,
Even the strongest broken with a roll of dice.

People grew more and more cruel.
And if you're different then you're a fool.
Values and morals fade and fade away.
Everyday obstacles come in my way.

Are we living in a sane world anymore?
Or this insanity already reached the core.
Life should not be this confusing.
Are we winning here or are we losing?

Have people given up on hope?
Or their dreams are strangled by a rope.
With what they have, everyone just settle.
To me life has become like a riddle.

Questions, Win or lose? Quit or fight?
Answers to these questions I cannot seem to find.
Holding on to hope is like holding on to fire.
People around me seem only lost in desire.

The magic in this world is clearly lost.
People’s hearts became cold as frost.
I look around, can't find any kindness
I look and find it replaced with iciness.

Is the hope in change really lost and gone?
Or I should still hope and wait for dawn.
The beautiful magic, can it be restored?
Can hope and dreams spread across the world?

Of a magical utopia, I constantly dream.
Where love and care flow like a water stream.
Where people can trust and believe in magic.
The magic of a world, so peaceful with no tragic.

It might be childish to hold on to such dream,
But I have to admit it gives me a wide beam.
The power to dream I don't want to lose.
Cause when lost I feel that time also froze.

Childish or ridiculous as it may seem.
I'm resolved to hold on to the power to dream.
I will always believe in magic, and so should you.
It's in my power to change the tragic, and so could you.

Just believe.

Behind the smile...

Behind the smile, they all admire.

Pain strikes in my heart like fire.

A fire that grows and never fades.

A fire that's veiled with parades.

As this fire grows, I fight.

I fight it with all my might.

It starts to fade just a little.

Yet I stay caught up in the middle.

It fades and grows, it grows and fades.

And I'm hiding it all with my parades.

But the low fire strengthens me.

With my sorry heart, I try to be free.

As the fire grows, so does my hope.

I fall in the ocean, but I'm holding on a rope.

I try as much as I can with my broken heart.

I try so hard to fill this hollow part.

I've been dealt a difficult hand.

But giving up is an option I can't stand.

I'm holding on my hope with all my heart.

I'm living as much as I could with a broken heart.

I swore nothing is going to hold me.

My broken heart will never stop me.

I enjoy my life with all the power in my mind.

I never give in to a pain of any kind.

I always keep a smile on my face.

Even if the growing fire never fades.

Even though my pain is deepened to the core.

I know I'm strong enough, I faced it all before.

With pain striking in my heart, my smile is true.

And you should smile to, even if you're feeling blue.

The soothsayer...

I was walking one day, ran into a soothsayer.
Thought to myself this is the answer to my prayer.
Too much I wanted to know about tomorrow.
I wonder if it would bring me more sorrow.


I watched her from across the street.
The order to approach her didn't reach my feet.
She noticed my stares and waved me to come.
I was wondering where she came from.


I stood facing her, she eyed me and said,
What can I do for you today, kid?
I tried to get the words out but I couldn't.
I wanted to be here but I knew I shouldn't.


I wanted to ask you a question, I said.
Questions I'm still debating in my head.
Have I already gotten this shallow?
The idea of a soothsayer was hard to swallow.


Go ahead and ask I don't have all day?
Tell me what's been worrying you today?
Is it a problem with your parents or a friend?
Go ahead and tell me I can be your friend.


I swallowed my fears and then talked.
I wanted to know about the roads I've walked.
I want to know about the days that will follow,
I would like to know if they'd bring me more sorrow.


The roads you've walked were your choice, kid.
Knowing more about them won't erase what you did.
Your choices are your own responsibility.
Changing your life is in your capability.


You asked about the days that will follow,
And whether life will bring you more sorrow.
I'm afraid with this I cannot help you.
As about the future, I cannot tell you.


A piece of advice is all I can offer.
You should not lose hope ever.
Do not live in fear from tomorrow.
Do not have your life controlled by sorrow.


Think about now and try to enjoy.
There is a lot in your life to bring in joy.
Don't waste your time on yesterday.
Plan for tomorrow and enjoy today.


You're too young to live in sorrow.
It's never good to give up on tomorrow.
Whatever it brings you, you should face.
Face it with courage, faith and grace.


Thank you so much for your advice, I said.
A million thought going through my head.
She was right in every word she said.
Over the past, I should no longer dread.


I got up and started to walk away.
Thinking this stranger just made my day.
She sure gave me a lot to think about,
From this moment on, I will not live in doubt.

My guardian angel and me

Guardian angel, I conjure you.
For without your help I have no clue.
Guardian angel, could you please help me?
Cause I need your help to break free.

You seek your freedom my friend.
However, you have loose ends to end.
As with fear, freedom cannot exist.
Confidence is the key, have it and rest.

Guardian angel, I feel so weak.
All true words I fear to speak.
Guardian angel, I'm trapped inside.
Going through mazes, in my own mind.

You're creating your own hell.
As if troubles are all you can smell.
I'm your guardian angel it's true.
However, in your own head I can't help you.

Guardian angel, I trust your judgment.
As what you say is no compliment.
Guardian angel, tell me what's true.
Please lead the way, as I have no clue.

My friend if peace is what you seek,
Then for your rights you have to speak.
When you're weak, peace you'll never reach.
As when you have sins, you cannot preach.

Guardian angel, I cannot let go.
Sometimes I think I'm my own foe.
Guardian angel, I cannot escape.
My mind feels like a rotten grape.

My friend a wall is what's in your way.
A wall you created day by day.
This wall you'll have to tear down.
Unless, you grew to love your own frown.

Guardian angel, give me a clue.
I want to break free. I swear it is true.
However, support is something I need.
And I cannot seem to find it anywhere indeed.

Look for support in the right place.
In the wrong ones, frustration you'll face.
Make up your mind and you'll succeed.
My friend presistance is what you need.

Guardian angel, how great you can be.
With your words, I shall break free.
I asked for a clue, you gave me plenty.
And I'll step up for the sake of my sanity.

My friend I am as great as you are.
For where I come from is not far.
I only exist to be by your side.
As where I come from is your own mind.

Done waiting...

I shall not wait for magic.
I'll no longer witness tragic.
cause it's not worth it.
I'm breaking all the rules.

I shall not shed another tear.
I'll no longer give in to fear.
Cause it's not worth it.
I'm breaking all the rules.

I shall not settle for little.
I'll no longer stay in the middle.
Cause it's not worth it.
I'm breaking all the rules.

I shall wonder no more.
I'll no longer ask what for.
Cause I'm worth it.
I'll live my own life now.

30-8-2009

My tribute to music...

***Music is a big inspiration to me. I owe a lot of my poems to music especially the bands "Muse","Blue October" & "Aerosmith". Music is a friend to me :D




You brighten my days.
You add alot to my life.
Giving me a lot of meaning
Introducing me to a new feeling.
You rock my soul from inside.
You open up my eyes and mind.
Picking me up when I'm down.
Helping me rise when I fall.
You bring new things to my life.
You make me feel alive.
Helping me change and evolve.
Every problem you manage to solve.
Melodies chasing the pain away.
Changing my mood every day.
You never leave me alone.
My friend you rock my life.
My friend you make my soul alive.

30-8-2009

Thoughts...

***This is again one of my first ones. I like it because it represents the confusion that I felt at that moment...

"Questioning... Doubting...
Sinking... Drowning...
Thinking... Wondering..

What am I missing here?
The picture is not complete.

Searching... Digging...
Seeking... Hoping...

What's the answer?
My life is not complete.

Asking... Listening...

What am I missing here?
Is the picture ever going to be complete???"

13-8-2009

Inspired by the sea...

Inspired by the sea.
Holding a picture of little you and me.
Digging through the past.
Trying to find a moment that lasts,
And the best of my life is with you.
You are my innocence.
You are my happy place.
You are my truth,
And you are my faith....

21-7-2009

One day...

***This one is also one of my first ones.



One day I'll fly.
One day I'll rule the world,
find my love and stay on top.

One day I'll be happy.
One day i'll have peace,
do my own thing and be my best.

One day I'll touch the stars.
One day it will last,
and I won't have to fight.

One day my smile will stay.
One day I'll be really touched,
and find someone that loves me that much.

One day will be a blast.
A blast that will finally last...

21-7-2009

Moments...

"I took another moment to think,
of everywhere I've been...
I took another closer look.
to what my life's been...
I found moments and moments,
going through my head over and over...
I've had my share of sadness
and I know it's not done yet...
Now I only want happiness
and I know it's not it's time yet...
But I will wait because I love my life
and I love my moments..."

21-1-2009