I don't feel the joy I pretended to feel anymore.. you being there does not mean to me what I though it would mean.. You are not you anymore and I am not me either.. Your presence does not mean anything more than a part of a pretty picture that I drew in my mind.. You have become a mere decoration in my life.. I thought you meant a lot to me.. No.. you did mean a lot to me.. But suddenly you do not mean that much to me anymore.. And it is not easy.. And it hurts.. That you are not the same person I wanted you to be.. You've changed into a picture in my imagination.. One that I do not really like to visit..
