Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Moments Of My Life...


On the 23rd of February, twenty years ago I was born. Twenty years are not that long , I know but I have seen a lot in those twenty years. I’ve laughed my heart out and I’ve cried for as long as you can possibly imagine.

On my 20th birthday, I decided that I wanted to share the good things that I’ve enjoyed in my life. The moments that I cannot forget and the people that I’ve met.


My childhood was happy, okay it wasn’t so happy. But honestly when I think of my childhood I cannot remember all the bad things. Childhood memories should be only happy ones. So a lot of my happy memories took place in “Alexandria Sporting Club” where I regularly spent every Thursday and Saturday for the first 11 years of my life. I remember when I got my first roller skates, they were dark blue and orange and they were a little big for my feet but I rode them anyway (I still have them and believe it or not they still fit me). My childhood friend/neighbor taught me how to skate. Naturally I fell down a lot :D. Me and all of my friends used to spent the whole time at the skating ring. We wore our skates everywhere we went inside the club. I was really sad when I found out that this whole area of the club was renovated, when I went to the club 7 years after I left Alex. Actually, I couldn’t recognize the whole club. But It’s still the place, where I spent a lot of my happy childhood moments.


My birthday used to be an event back then. My beloved mom used to throw me one hell of a birthday party every year. I remember one time she bought some magic tricks and performed a magician act ( I adore you mom ).


I miss all my childhood friends. I miss my school, even thought I hated school back then (who likes school anyway) but I miss it. I miss the ride on the school bus with my friends every morning. I miss the ride home even more. We used to save all our allowances during the day and then before we go home we’d buy all the candy we loved and share them on our way home. *sigh* I miss those days and those people. I miss Alex, I still go there a lot but Alex changed it’s not the same.


I have to admit I have more happy memories in Alex than in Cairo. But I still love Cairo especially at night. I remember my first day at my new school (I hate first days of everything). I remember my first new friend in Cairo “Sahr”. Our school was new so we were 4 students in the class, 2 girls and 2 boys. Those days were hilarious. We used to play all kinds of games inside the classroom. A couple of years later we were like 9 in the class, 6 boys and 3 girls. I remember we used to play football on the P.E. period. My team was us the 3 girls and 2 other boys. The matches we played were hilarious. I can’t play football, I have balance issues and I was the shortest and slimmest  person in the class so everyone stayed out of my way. I once scored a goal and I was like wooow. By the way, we won every time we played :D the rest of my team could actually play lol.


Now a very funny/important moment in my life was when I got the test results of my senior year (El thanwya el 3ama ). I was in Marsa Matrou7, and it was like 3:00 am and no one I know could get the results and I was like having a nervous breakdown. My friend called me and he gave me the good news :D I made it and I got even more than the grades I needed. I wanted to scream ( My dream will come truuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuue). I couldn’t scream of course people were sleeping :D but I was jumping up and down hugging my mom. This was One of the happiest moments of my life. There is no better feeling than that of success :D.


I love every moment of my life, even the bad ones after all they made me who I am. For every person who ever made me laugh or even smile I have to say (Thank you <3), For those people who I didn’t get to keep in my life till this day I say (I miss you <3) and for those wonderful people I have in my life now I say (I love you <3) and For my self I say (Happy birthday :D)



Friday, February 19, 2010

I won't forget...I won't forgive...



What shall I tell you ?

Shall I tell you that I might hate you,
I might get past every natural emotion I was born with
And actually hate you.
That someday I might not need you anymore and you won’t find me.
I wish I could tell you all that, but I can’t and I won’t.
You were very important to me.
Now,
I can’t tell if I just need you or I do actually want you in my life.
You changed me and I will never forgive you for that.
I felt things I wasn’t supposed to feel,
I did things I never wanted to do.
I may forgive you for a lot of things.
I may even forgive you for everything.
But,
For breaking my heart beyond repair,
I’ll never forgive you.
You were supposed to be my safe harbor,
You were supposed to be my support in this life.
You were supposed to be my idol.
I will never forgive you for taking what was supposed to be mine.
I’ll try to forgive you as much as I can.
But For taking you away
I’m sorry
I can never forgive you for that.



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